Monday, February 28, 2011

Now What?

The funeral and memorial services are over, family members and friends have flown home...yet you still cannot believe that your teenage son won't coming lumbering in the front door any minute, a sly grin on his face. The sympathy cards are piled up, still unread...your son's favorite jacket still hangs over his bedroom chair, but his bed has not been slept in in over a week. Every night when you go to sleep you hope that when you wake in the morning, you will find its all just a bad dream...but every morning you wake up and the nightmare that your life has become still continues. Sleep is a double edged dream that your child is still alive, and the story of his death is just a big joke...but then you wake up and you find that he is still gone.

Your mind cannot fully grasp that your child is truly gone from your earthly life....

And the heavy pain in the middle of your chest is never ending....the physical manifestation of the grief in your heart....that serves as a constant if you could forget for an instant...

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